My Tantra Journey

The blog is still here.

This blog is well hidden.

My Journey is at a standstill.

We don't talk much anymore. Conditions on my end more than hers.

There is a deep longing in me to continue. It surfaces from time to time.

Conversations occur occasionally, sporadically, enough to keep the ember of desire glowing ever so slightly.

Occasional Incredible Orgasms

Well time apart can sometimes just lead to incredible intense orgasms. I think it had been a few months since I has talked with V. We had a change to catch up last week. And some intense 'play' followed. Her voice and her way with me, just brings me intense pleasure.
Just words and visions. My mind explodes waves of orgasmic release. She is the only one I can seem to get my own multiple orgasms with. Now for a guy this does take some practice, that ability to have an orgasm with out the volcano erupting ;) , but with her it is easy for me to do. I get to a 'place' and it really just takes her telling me "cum now" and I do.

My tantra journey

Well, like I said last week, my tantra journey with V is on hold really.
there was a just miss contact last week. :(

SO my tantra journey has taken a turn.
More meditation.
Daily now.

I had dropped off for a while, with just me not making the time to do it.

then I read something:

'Mindfullness is just a work without meditation'

wow that really shocked me back into awareness of the need, the desire to meditate.

then with awareness and meditation I become more aware of my sexual desires, where I want to go. or just aware of the desire inside me.

does that make any sense?

LONG TIME

Long time no post huh?

what is up with me and my muse....

well once we were 'found out' things had to come to a screeching halt for a while.
contact now is minimal, sort of my choice. Not what I want really, but what I am doing at the moment.

I don't get much traffic here since I don't post, but I have nothing of a sexual nature to post about really. Sex with wife is pretty vanilla....

Like last night for instance... when she is putting an ice bag on her pussy
I am like
what are you doing?

she says well she feels something coming on, it feels tight like she has to pee, and she is trying to relax the muscles... In NO mood for anything frisky....

Putting ice on her pussy....
there is a metaphor in there as well...

Some flirting

More contact...
some flirting..
unable to talk because of my situation.

But flirting again

:D

Times Changing

I last posted in June. A lot has happened in my life. NOT much of it with V actually.
I some LONG trips this summer and we were able to connect for a month.
I do miss her so. I miss the connection we had. Daily connection via phone or email.
NOW weekly at best emails. We haven't talked in a long time.
I miss her voice so much.
It had just been a long times since a post and I wanted to say SOMETHING here.
I even took a tour of links on the side over to the right.
Like my last post, I cannot do any such surfing at work any longer.
Nice to read familiar 'voices'. Written words are the voice of the writer. Glimpses into the world of the writer. This morning has been a rush of emotions.

I will write again soon

ARRRGGG

Filters
yes filters at work. BIG BROTHER has put up filters at work so I cannot go to some web sites that contain specific words. Much like George Carlin's 7 words I am noticing.

SO if I am not commenting on your page, it is because I can't even view it from work.

sometimes the blocking page will say 'why' I can't view some pages...

these are the words I have seen so far as to why certian web pages will not show up..

sex, lingerie, swim suits, nudity
BIG BROTHER is watching.